Proverbs 29:25
The fear of man brings a snare, But whoever trusts in the LORD shall be safe.
Wow!!! What timing for this verse....
As you may know, On September 23 (8 days ago) I gave birth to our 9th Blessing!!! Well since then, I really did not sleep very much until this past Sunday - a few days ago.... I did not sleep the 2 nights in the hospital and with other things happening at home - I did not sleep very well there either....
On Friday & Saturday nights - I kind of had some huge problems because of this lack of sleep... I was not in the right frame of mind. My blood pressure was sky-rocketing and I just felt physically unwell.... So that led to some panic attacks.... They were mostly a struggle pertaining to this verse.... the fears of man verses trusting in God....
Have you heard Casting Crowns' "The Voice of Truth"???
Chorus:
But the voice of truth tells me a different story
the voice of truth says "do not be afraid!"
and the voice of truth says "this is for my glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth
Well the fears of man - possible medical problems, all kinds of fear - were running rampant in my head.... There were all kinds of fears that the enemy was planting in my head - causing me to become paralyzed with fear.... but the voice of Truth - Jesus - The Word of Truth, was fighting for me..... God is in control, He holds all things in His hands - were some of His promises running thru my head.
Because I had NOT been spending much time fellowshipping with God in the few weeks prior to giving birth - I had allowed some fears to get a tiny foothold in me.... I got distracted.... I was not completely trusting in God..... So these fears tried to take over....
I do praise the LORD - that very soon after I started panicing - I asked for someone to bring me some Praise & Worship music - so that I could hear the truth - to have God's abilities - mentioned in this music to seep thru me - to remind me of the Truths about God's Power. As I listened, I drew strength from God - as I was reminded of HIS Marvelous Power!!! I was able to sleep very peacefully for several hours that night....
Saturday night - my blood pressure was extremely high - both numbers from the lack of sleep and rest.... But I was able to go to sleep somewhat and just trust God that He was in control and would be with me....
On Sunday, we all realized that my body was very much exhausted and that I really need to sleep - I slept 5 hours (several naps) during the day - and that night I was in bed for 14 hours - sleeping most of that time.... (off and on with feeding baby....) LOL
So.... what has this taught me.... I am getting older and it was harder for me to recover after birth... LOL
Actually - I realized that yes, I have come a long ways in this past few years in trusting God 1st - but there is always room for improvement.... We (I) have to daily - every moment, choose to trust in God to be our ALL in ALL. We need to listen to HIS voice and not the voice of the enemy..... We NEED to listen to the Voice of Truth - Jesus....
I thank God for this experience and every time I go thru anything that is HARD - because I know that we have a GOD that truly cares about the minute details of our lives. HE TRULY CARES!!!
1 comment:
OH, wow, you've been having it SO rough and I pray that God get you out of this rut! I love that song you shared...great song! I am glad that spending time with God is helping you get through this difficult time.
Really? You want that 30 photo layout as a template? I would not have imagined anyone would have wanted that mess!
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